"Death is not the King
of TerrorsThat title should be reserved to life itself."
The Stoneham Journal
It was my second morning in Canada, and I found myself
standing in front of the Cobston Telegraph-Dispatch office, aware that
no place I had ever visited seemed less likely to be the possessor of
dark secrets than this quiet Canadian town. If there was anything at all
wrong, it was that my father was dead, and I never knew him. My life had
been patched together and edited in the same way that my father's strange
diary had been fixed before my aunt had deemed it fit to hand over to
me.
Having reached my late 20s in 1970, I had reached the
age of discovery. I knew that mysteries were meant to be experienced,
not solved, and I believed that love is the greatest of all mysteries.
I had still to learn that true horror was beyond explanation or description.
The uncomfortable November chill made me go quickly through the metal-framed
door to the hot dry air of the newspaper office-that newspaper that had
belonged to my father. The newsroom had been remodeled, but the banks of
fluorescent lights illuminated a room with oak desks piled with page proofs
and ivory-painted walls hung with framed press photographs. One closest
to the receptionist's desk showed a robust Prime Minister John Diefenbaker
posing with my father in front of the newspaper office, probably in the
1950s. The news staff comprised three people, an editor and two reporters.
I ignored the two men to look fixedly at the dark, shoulder-length hair
of a girl whose fingers flew feverishly on a new IBM Selectric typewriter.
Her back was to me, so my eyes went automatically to the dominant feature
of the office-a massive wood-carved pine plaque on the rear wall, whose
walnut-stained and raised Bodoni letters proclaimed:
All that Should be made known
Funny, I noticed the peculiar capitalization of the word "Should,"
and wondered if the craftsman had made an error. I
looked around, but nobody seemed to be aware of me. Finally, the girl
turned around, saw me, and got up from her desk. "You're Stoneham,
aren't you?" Her smile seemed genuine.
"Am I wearing
a name tag?" I was surprised at my quick response. Usually I crafted
snappy comebacks a half hour after the conversation. I couldn't help but
notice the mid-thigh skirt that could make me forget my name if I wasn't
careful.
"No, but
you dress like an American, and Mr. Girard told me to watch for Mr. Stoneham's
son to arrive this morning." She arched her eyebrows slightly. "I'm
Teri Ottoway, and I've been assigned to be your tour guide today-unless
you'd prefer Mr. Girard."
It was my turn
to smile. "Nice to meet you. You can call me Frank-same as my father.
I guess you're the first person I've really talked to except for the real
estate agent who opened up the house for me yesterday."
"Yes, it's
one of Cobston's older homes. Pretty nice, eh?" As she made small
talk, I was paying attention to the unusual Canadian inflections that
I had heard about but never heard.
"You know,
I didn't think Canada would be different, but I ordered french fries at
a restaurant last night and the waitress asked if I wanted vinegar."
I didn't want to tell her that I was startled awake last night in the
house when a loud thunk echoed from the cellar. It was the first time
I had ever been in a house with an oil-fired furnace.
"Now, I
have been ordered to give you the grand tour of Cobston, but I also have
to stop in at the OPP and pick up their occurrence reports for tomorrow's
edition. Meanwhile, I think I'd rather call you Stoneham. That name really
carried a lot of weight in this town." She casually flipped her long
brown hair off her shoulder and went to her desk to get a notepad, a black
handbag, and a coat. She wore those clunky heels that were in fashion,
but they didn't keep me from noticing her legs.
When we got
outside, I could see my breath. Teri said, "You'll have to buy a
coat if you're going to hang around up here. That Levi's jacket won't
do it." She was treating me like an immigrant. "We'll take my
car since you are bound to be clueless right now."
"Thanks
for the confidence, " I realized that I had exhausted my store of
comebacks. In a parking lot behind the building was a dark green 1966
Chevrolet that looked 20 years old, its fender wells and rocker panels
bubbling with rust. Where I came from in New Mexico, cars seldom rusted.
The interior
of the car was musty and damp smelling. Teri buckled a seat belt and motioned
for me to do the same. "New Ontario law, Stoneham. Everybody's supposed
to use them." I buckled up.
For the next
hour we drove up the Main Street where cars were diagonally parked in
clusters along the modest business district, down King Street, up James
Street, across Church Street, and onto Kingston Avenue, but my attention
wavered between watching Teri's legs and thinking about my father's journal.
Reared by my aunt and uncle in New Mexico, I felt very fortunate to have
had a stable family and a decent education but, as with others like myself,
I had a strong curiosity about my biological roots. Until recently, I
knew only that my father had been a newspaper publisher, had married late,
and that my mother had died when I was very young. I also had a sister
whom I remembered but dimly, and she also died young. My aunt always hinted
that my father had been plagued with professional success and personal
misfortune, haunted by something that affected his whole life. In my childhood
fantasies, I had cast my absent father as a haunted war hero whose first
world war experience he shouldered like an invisible rucksack whose contents
nobody was allowed to examine. On his instructions, he had been cremated.
I resented the fact that his life had been closed out for weeks before
I learned about his death.
A car pulled
out from a stop sign, causing Teri to jam on the brakes. "F--ing
small town drivers!" She shouted at the windshield, then she caught
the shocked look on my face. "Well, Ali McGraw in "Love Story"
had to be based on how real women talk, eh?"
My brief embarrassment
seemed to amuse her, but I was now looking at the cobbled brick street
we were traversing, the wheels drumming faintly. A large stone Anglican
church loomed to our left. "I wonder if this is the place
"
I caught Teri looking at me with arched eyebrows again. "Sorry. All
I know about my father is a diary or journal that he left me, and he talked
a lot about the church in Cobston."
"Yeah,
in those days there was just St. Mark's and the Catholics. I guess life
was simpler then."
I knew the heater
was on in the car, but I felt chilled. The leafless trees along the street
seemed to be surrounded by leaden gray. Here I was in Canada, having inherited
a house and a monthly sum that was generated by my father's lien on the
Cobston newspaper. It was all very strange, but the journal was the strangest
part. Why had my Aunt Helen, whom I'd known as a mother, decided to expurgate
a simple diary? "I guess you don't know much about this, but I've
got so many questions about my father and something that happened in Cobston."
"Of course
your father is still remembered for his coverage of the awful cholera
epidemic after the first war. Mr. Girard told me that the Stoneham name
was taken off the masthead when your father sold the paper in 1963, but,
because your father carried the note on the paper, he often came to the
newsroom , probably to advise the new publisher on ways to brown nose
advertisers." Seeing my interest in the church, Teri pulled over
to the curb and we got out. The damp breeze was raw and chafing to the
skin. I would never admit it to her, but I wished I had a warmer coat.
"Where's
the cemetery?" I was thinking about references remaining in the edited
journal about some "work" my father had done at the cemetery.
Teri strode
purposefully along a paved pathway skirting the imposing stone structure
of the church and its rectory, the sound of her shoes echoing in the morning
gray. To the right along the path was a grim windowless stone building
that must have been the vault. We walked along in this surreal stone garden
that had sprouted white, gray and black monuments surrounded by lush green
grass, and I could see some of the stones bore weathered dates from the
early 1800s. "The vault hasn't been used since the second war, but
I've wondered about this place. Let me show you something."
The path veered
to the left, sloping downward. I saw instantly what Teri was talking about.
At the edge of the grass was an area approximately 50 yards wide and half
again as broad that was almost barren. The soil was brownish, sickly looking,
and I detected a faint sour smell rising from the bare surface. In two
or three spots, a stand of common mullein had sprouted and their woolly
leaves had long since wilted with the November chill. I walked forward
from the end of the paved walkway and almost tripped on a partially buried
flat stone whose chiseled inscription had worn down near to the surface:
"Here lie victims of the epidemic...1919" Rusting on the ground
was a metal frame that must once have enclosed some kind of document listing
the buried, but this sector of the graveyard was obviously untended, and
any roster was long since decayed.
Another slight
shiver went through me, and I was thinking about the wild tale written
in the document from the Toronto detective-a story of praeternatural horror
and death long after this epidemic was forgotten. "Hey, Teri, if
somebody says they saw a ghost, and the person there with them doesn't
see the ghost, does that mean that one of them is wrong?"
"Goddam,
Stoneham, I don't do philosophy before lunch. Besides I'm an objectivist.
Things exist or they don't exist. If they do exist, their existence can
be proved. I had a prof in college who tried to lay down this subjective
existence stuff, but he just wanted to sleep with me. He was a bastard."
Her mouth tightened slightly, but her stance was relaxed.
So, I told her
about the document that came with the Stoneham house from the private
investigator who had known my father and also had known my older sister
whom I scarcely remembered. The detective report was dated 1965 and addressed
to me, care of my father. Five years ago, my father was preparing to tell
me this story. I felt uncomfortable about mentioning the report, with
its Toronto letterhead and the coffee stain on the covering letter. I
had not read it fully, but the letter carried the description of his work
as being "Investigations and Private Enquiries." His name was
John Delaney.
Teri laughed
suddenly. "Yeah, I remember the old guy-everybody in town remembers
that character. He was a regular fixture around Cobston back in the 40s.
They say he kept coming back here from T-O right into the early 60s. I
hear he was a piece of crap-a drunk, a lecher -- chasing women in every
pub in the area
"
"Did he
catch any?"
"Hell,
how fast do you have to be to catch the clap?"
I suspected
the detective was inclined to exaggeration, describing my father's house
as a mansion. Even if I dismissed most of the Delaney claims, there still
must have been something at the core of the mystery.
Teri pulled
at my sleeve and shivered ostentatiously, so we began walking briskly
back toward the car. "I've only been working at the paper a couple
of years, but I remember your father as being a pretty level-headed guy.
I think he was willing to put up with that looney Delaney because they
were both war veterans. Your father told me once that when your sister
Lucy died in 1953, Delaney really went around the bend. You say you don't
remember much about your sister?"
"My mother
died a year after I was born, and Lucy was in high school when the war
came along. My father had more than he could handle, so he sent me to
the States to be raised by my aunt and uncle. We had virtually no contact
before he died."
Back in the
car, with the engine turning and the heater blowing welcome warm air,
we sat and I stared at the remarkable stonework of St. Mark's church and
was convinced that the building was much the same today as it had been
in 1919.
"Funny
thing about that Delaney guy," Teri was remembering something she
had found in her research. "He had all kinds of problems with the
clergy at St. Mark's. The current guy, Rev. Jerry, has only been here
a couple of years, 'bout as long as I've been working this town, but in
the '40s and '50s, Delaney had run-ins with the rector, and there ended
up being real bad blood between Delaney and Rev. Jerry's predecessor.
Don't know if it's true or not, but some say that they had a shouting
match right outside the front door there, with Delaney, drunk as a lord,
waving a pistol at the Rev. Peeler. They say it happened only five or
six years ago."
"What did
you say happened to him?" It was my firm conviction that every community
should have its lunatic fringe characters.
"Nobody
knows for sure, except he just stopped coming back to Cobston sometime
a few years ago. From what I gathered, by then he was in his late 50s
and the booze had really got to him. One person I interviewed said the
Toronto police had lifted his driver's licence for multiple DUI-that's
driving under the influence for you foreigners-but he'd take the bus up
here and end up poking around the church, getting into altercations with
Rev. Peeler. I think losing the love of his life, your sister, probably
destroyed him. I guess that's a woman's main mission in life, eh?"
Teri smiled brightly and put the Chevy automatic transmission into Drive.
While I found
myself drawn to this energetic and attractive girl, her comment reminded
me of something the shunned author and occultist Aleister Crowley had
written: "In India when they want to destroy a man, they bury him
in an ant hill. In England, they introduce him to a woman." I wondered
idly how similar Canada was to Britain.
Teri and I went
to lunch at a place called Farmer's Table in downtown Cobston. As we ate
the Tuesday special of steaming beef stew and fresh-baked bread, Teri
railed against Canadian Prime Minister Pierre Elliot Trudeau, whom she
called the Emperor. "Canada will spiral into a welfare hell with
him at the helm."
"Hey, I don't even know the names of the parties, but he can't be
that bad, can he?"
She began to
talk about free markets, capitalism, and how nobody would recognize Canada
in 20 years time. "Every entitlement the government sets up as a
safety net will slow the natural incentive to work and the economy will
gradually grind to a halt. But, ignorant slut that I am, what do I know?"
I tried to ignore
her sarcasm. "All I know is that I think at least I like the girls
here, and the only thing that seems strange so far is the funny-colored
money. At least the exchange rate is almost on a par with the U.S. dollar."
"I wouldn't
bet on it staying that way. By the way, what kind of woman would you look
for in Canada, Stoneham?"
"Probably
somebody with a vocabulary," I said, with my own smirk.
Teri ignored
the comment. "Besides, I'm the ONLY girl you've met in Canada. You
probably just want to..."
"
read
your article on the history of the Telegraph-Dispatch." I finished
her sentence and she sneered into her coffee cup. I tried to explain my
growing certainty to explain Delaney's mad, impossible story, and the
strange tales told of the plague year in Cobston. Teri rolled her eyes
and arched her eyebrows. She crossed her legs to ruin my concentration
and shook her head now and then.
"Try to
imagine seeing or experiencing something unprecedented-something you never
experienced in life, or saw in books or movies, or were told about in
oral tradition. Can you imagine, for example, Kenneth Arnold seeing the
first flying saucers in 1947, or a seafaring man in the 18th century finding
his ship under attack from a giant squid. When we are faced with the inexplicable,
our minds have to create an explanation-a new mental file folder, since
we cannot bear to have something left unknown. The saucer fanatics created
benevolent space brothers or concocted a science fiction rationale, but
there may be events that are actually beyond explanation."
"That's
all bulls---."
I tried ignoring
her intransigent nature and asked her to tell me about the stories about
Cobston and the father whose name I inherited. Teri had chronicled the
devastating 1919 plague that had claimed 93 souls, including Cobston's
mortician and my father's first fiancé.
"It was
a horrible time when influenza was assaulting all of North America and
part of Europe. The cholera epidemic just hit Cobston, and the system
was overwhelmed. Cholera spreads like wildfire and apparently kills just
as quickly. Far as I can tell, they had to bury most of the victims in
that mass grave, then to avoid further disease, they treated the soil
with something to assist decomposition. Then it was over." Teri had
obviously done her homework on Cobston history.
Two tables away,
two businessmen in suit pants, white shirts and subdued narrow ties sat
talking about coming heating costs for the winter. It was all too normal.
"Okay, Teri, then why did my father write in his journal-in the pages
my aunt didn't rip out before I got it-why did he write, 'I shall also
never question the ways of the mortician. He has proved wise beyond his
own knowledge'?"
"How the
hell should I know, Stoneham?" She said it very pleasantly. "Let's
finish lunch so I can go get the cop reports for tomorrow's edition. I'll
give you this much: Cobston does have a strange mood about it, but I can't
tell you what makes it peculiar. Now, let's go."
Since I was
just along for the ride, I was happy to acquiesce, trying to absorb as
much atmosphere of this Canadian town sitting quiet and gray with its
late autumn secrets. It seemed to me that the dim light of afternoon faded
all too quickly, and I felt relieved that I was able to talk Teri into
coming to the Stoneham house to share a pizza after she had filed her
stories for the day. Her curiosity was about my father's house, not about
me, and she was vocal on that issue.
While I waited
for Teri to arrive later in the evening, I sat with all the room lights
and lamps full on, thinking about my father's puzzling statement and wondering
why I found myself reading a volume of Poe in my father's bookshelf, and
Poe's question in "The Premature Burial," that asked, "The
silver cord was not for ever loosed, nor the golden bowl irreparably broken.
But where, meantime, was the soul?" It seemed that I had spent much
of my youth pondering such questions, and I had found what I thought might
be an answer.
Teri arrived
at 8:30, and she called me out to the car where a large pizza box filled
the front seat and she had brought some beer from her place. Her eyes
were animated, and she had already been drinking before she came over.
"No pre-judgments, please. I just like scotch a little better than
I like most people. Haven't made my mind up about where you fit on that
scale."
As we ate, I
thought about my father and the personal agonies he had endured in this
house, all overshadowed by something beyond the WWI trenches that had
seared his soul. Now I had to tell a very attractive skeptic what I had
learned about the shells of the dead.
"I know
you don't believe this stuff, but the idea that the universe is an accidental
chemical creation, and that all living things are merely organic conveniences
that have no previous existence and will have no existence beyond what
we call death. This modern conceit goes counter to all concepts prior
to the 20th century."
"Jesus,
Stoneham, wake up and smell the dead people. When it's over, it's over."
"I don't
think it was over in Cobston, and I want you to help me prove it."
She could tell that I was sincere.
Teri arched
her eyebrows and toyed with her hair, smiling less now. "I know that
Americans are crazy, but I thought you looked almost normal. Why should
I go along with you on this, other than the fact that there's probably
nothing else to do in this town?"
I reached across
the sofa and tentatively touched Teri on the shoulder, as much because
I really wanted to touch her as to reassure her. "Let me tell you
about my friend's grandmother back in New Mexico. She was a wonderful
woman, and she made me feel like a member of her family, but when her
husband was injured in a fall from his horse, she went into a deep depression.
Her husband and daughters decided she needed some kind of treatment, and
the doctors recommended electric shock therapy. Before she went to the
hospital, she used to take us kids to town to go to the movies, out to
the Dairy Queen all the time
then she came home from the treatments."
Teri opened
a third Molson's while I was only halfway down on my first. "If you
think this is going to get me to go to bed with you-" She appeared
to be impatient.
"Okay,
a week after she was brought home from the hospital, I came to visit,
and when I went home I was really scared. I was there for an hour with
the family, and Gramma Reilly sat in her easy chair, gray hair drawn back
into a bun. She just sat there and her husband kept lighting cigarettes
for her. She smoked them down mechanically, while the conversation went
on around her. We'd talk to her, and she'd kind of answer, but the answers
were always stilted and irrelevant. Her eyes had always danced, but there
was something cold in her eyes that day, something vacant. Her voice was
hollow, and everybody said she was 'in recovery,' but I felt a cold terror
like she wasn't there any more and that something else was inside of her.
I never went back to that house, and she died after a couple of months.
I can't tell you how scary that experience was, but it did one thing for
me. It made me determined to learn what life and death were really about."
"Stoneham,
your late father wouldn't happen to have a bottle of real scotch-anything
not distilled by Seagram's-I don't think I can follow your story without
help."
Because I didn't
know my father's habits, I had no idea whether there was any liquor in
the Stoneham house, but I was hoping that I could dissuade Teri from drinking
further. "I've had a lot of time to read and, like most college students,
I was astounded to discover that somebody prior to our generation knew
anything at all. Freud didn't discover psychology-he just turned it into
a commercial proposition. The Greeks had it all figured 2000 years ago.
Same thing with unexplained events. I think we're arrogant if we think
that, prior to modern empirical science, people were as dumb as rocks.
There was a time, for example, when research into astrology was as methodical
as modern experiments in physics and chemistry."
"This has
something to do with the plague in Cobston? You'd better get to the point
before the beer runs out. The pizza's already gone." Teri squinted
at me skeptically.
"I wanted
to know where my friend's grandmother went, and I found the answer in
philosophy, not in psychology. The Hebrew Qabalah is a traditional doctrine
that recognizes the spiritual nature of humanity. It holds that pure consciousness
descends into existence, accumulating density of reason, emotion, and
imagination until, through desire, that imagination congeals into an earthly
incarnation.
"When the
physical vehicle can no longer support the life force, it withdraws again
into a subjective state. This reflects the pre-20th century idea of life
and its ebb and flow. This same esoteric doctrine also speaks of a sphere
of quasi-existence beneath material existence that was labeled the qlippoth-the
shells of the dead. The cast-off personas of all existence
"
"I think
that's person-ae, Stoneham, but I'm trying to listen. You're almost as
much fun as a Monkees rerun, and you make about as much sense."
"Okay,
now you say you respected my father, so why would he write in his journal
'Death is not the King of Terrors-That title should be reserved to life
itself.' He was a rational man, a newspaper editor, but something happened
to him in Cobston that he never got over."
"Stoneham,
I wrote a series of articles about the newspaper and your father's life,
and I admit that your father made reference to things he said shouldn't
be made public, but I thought he was just Edwardian in his attitudes.
One thing for sure, if something horrible happened, it must have happened
in that cemetery back after the first war."
For a moment
I was aware of the wash of the table lamps on the yellowed walls of the
living room, the patterned upholstery of the sofa, and the utter silence
of the cold world outside the front door. Suddenly I felt the realization
that Cobston might be one of those strange places where impossible events
protruded through the skin of the normal world . The attractive woman
sharing a pizza with me was my only key to discovering what might have
been in the missing pages of my father's journal. "How do we explore
the cemetery?"
"I'm not
so sure 'we' are going to do anything, but I will say that the new rector
of St. Mark's is pretty damn friendly. I think he probably wants to sleep
with me." Teri was showing the effects of the beer and whatever she
had been drinking before she arrived.
"I'm sure
everybody does; now, what do we do?" Teri appeared to miss my own
attempt at sarcasm, but I felt as though she would help me find what I
needed to know about the missing pages of my father's journal.
"Sunday
and Monday are my days off. Monday is a good day to visit St. Mark's.
That's if I feel so inclined by then." Teri stood up, and very much
aware of my eagerness about the search. I should have offered to drive
her home, but I could tell that Cobston was a typical small town and the
streets were probably empty after dark. I also knew that Teri Ottoway
had a stubborn streak that would not brook argument.
The next few
days were spent in reading Delaney's description of drinking and pursuing
the woman he loved, my long-dead sister, and of guns and shooting in the
woods south of town. I drove back to the church and went to the place
where the grass no longer grew and where the soil seemed poisoned. When
I walked across that shunned ground, it seemed spongy and soft. I retreated
back to the paved walkway.
I ate in the
town restaurant, bought incidentals at the Becker's Milk store, and generally
introduced myself to the residents. They were a pleasant lot, but when
I asked about the plague year, they shrugged or shook their heads as though
they had never heard of it. At the town library, the librarian on duty
said she remembered her mother saying that there had been ghosts in Cobston
created by the plague. She planned to write a book about them someday.
The words "shells
of the dead" echoed in my mind in the early evenings, when I tried
to tune in the two television channels that reached Cobston. I came to
think, in those dark hours, that such a concept was a good definition
of evil-the interruption of the natural order. It would explain the very
credible accounts of true vampires in eastern Europe, and it just might
be the explanation for Cobston.
Monday dawned
as gray and chilly as the past five days had been, and I realized I had
never seen a climate where the sun did not come out and temper the chill,
even in late fall and winter. Teri drove us to St. Mark's Anglican church
at 9 a.m. where we were to meet Rev. Gerald Holt whom Teri kept referring
to as "Jerry" in an almost pejorative sense. He met us at the
door to the rectory and waved us inside eagerly. He was wearing traditional
clerical garb, but I thought the collar seemed to fit him poorly.
We sat in old
armchairs crafted of polished oak, and I was staring at the procession
of rector portraits around the office wall. One of them, a sepia-toned
photograph of Rev. Arthur Gresham indicated the last year of his tenure
to be 1919. His name was the only one I recognized because it was mentioned
in my father's journal.
Rev. Jerry,
as I now thought of him, caught me staring. "Oh yes-Rev. Gresham.
He was the only rector to die at the church. There was a terrible accident
in the cemetery vault when something collapsed and crushed him."
"That was
when they stopped using the vault?" I was just guessing.
"I believe
that is correct." Rev. Jerry put his hands together and made a steeple
out of his fingers. "But that vault wasn't the original." He
was talking to me, but his eyes kept darting toward Teri who seemed to
smile brightly while crossing her legs, looking at nothing in particular.
The young rector was obviously fond of Teri, and he explained that the
burial vault in the cemetery was built in the late 19th Century. Before
that time, and before there was a modern mortuary in Cobston, there was
an underground vault in the church cellar that dated from the early days
of St. Mark's. "It was boarded up, by coincidence, by the same Rev.
Gresham, back in 1919, just before he died."
"The question
is whether we could explore down there." Teri asked suddenly.
Rev. Jerry was
set to automatically respond negatively. His whole body tensed, but Teri
was smiling at him. To my amusement, he said, "I guess we could arrange
that
" even though it was obvious that he was completely opposed
to the idea. "I don't think anybody's been in there for at least
20 years, maybe since Rev. Gresham's death. We'd have to take down some
boards and see if the old doors can be opened."
"It could
make an interesting article, if there's anything there." She closed
the deal, and it was agreed that the following Monday we would investigate
the original vault under St. Mark's church.
Before we left,
I stopped at the final photo portrait in the procession of St. Mark's
rectors. A broad-shouldered cleric with iron-gray bushy hair grinned at
the camera, and I asked Rev. Jerry about him.
"Yeah,
well I never met Rev. Peeler. He retired at the same time the diocese
gave me the opportunity to come here. He just went off without a card
or a letter. One of our parishioners said he wanted to retire to Florida
or the Caribbean. Once you've been here for a winter, you'll sympathize.
Peeler was apparently a very determined and authoritative figure. He didn't
suffer fools gladly."
I used the next
few days to shop in Cobston. I bought a down-filled jacket, two powerful
flashlights, and a flash unit for my Nikon F camera. Teri and I shared
lunch and arguments twice during the week. She did not accept that there
could be experiences the mind could not assimilate and understand.
The following
Monday dawned blustery and cold, with the late November drizzle turning
to a trace of snow that blew wraithlike along the streets of Cobston.
When Teri arrived, we loaded the gear and headed directly for St. Mark's.
Along the way, I pointed out a Cobston resident watering his driveway
in the cold.
Teri laughed
at me for not understanding that driveways became hockey rinks for kids
in Canada, and I realized I had never seen ice strong enough to safely
stand on when I lived in rural New Mexico.
Rev. Jerry met
us at the front steps of St. Mark's. We entered the church whose high-ceilinged
interior seemed even larger and more majestic than it appeared from the
outside. We followed the rector along the burgundy-carpeted middle aisle
toward the altar rail. The dim day of Cobston illuminated the several
stained glass Windows on either side of the church nave, each containing
a donation panel for the family that subscribed to the window's construction.
Our footsteps
were muffled by the carpet and, out of Episcopalian habit, I followed
the example of the rector and my companion by bowing my head before the
altar and then turning right and following the communion rail around behind
the pulpit and through a door at the extreme right of the altar. A small
room lined with dark oak-stained wardrobes stood open with choir and acolyte
vestments either suspended from hangers or piled on a small table in readiness
for the Cobston Cleaners.
The door to
the cellar was at the south end of the room and led down behind the altar
of the church. Rev. Jerry turned on the cellar lights and we descended
the heavy wooden stairs to the basement. The smell of the furnace and
the dim yellowness of the two overhead light bulbs made the place seem
confining and isolated.
On the east
wall of the basement, a pile of wood and boxes were carelessly heaped.
Rev. Jerry pointed. "That's where the old vault was. As I said, it
hasn't been disturbed since Rev. Gresham's time. Rev. Peeler, who preceded
me, left a few notes, and this was one thing he did clearly state in his
notes. I guess he knew, since he had been here for so many years."
Rev. Jerry gave me an old padlock key and pointed behind the clutter to
a scarcely visible metal bar that held bare wood double doors tightly
shut. "Much of that wood pile was supposed to be a part of the old
coal chute that came from this south wall." He pointed to a place
on the cellar wall where mortared rock was interrupted by a dark concrete
rectangle.
"Are you
sure we can get through the door?" Teri zipped up her coat and tried
the switch on the big lantern-style flashlight I had given her.
"Of course
I don't know," Rev. Jerry rubbed his soft, white hands together;
"all I ask is that you put things in some kind of order when you
are done." He backed toward the basement stairs. "Oh, and by
the bye, Rev. Peeler did write in the notes to his successor that it would
be inadvisable and could be dangerous to open up the old vault."
Through the
heavy furnace glass on the boiler, the oil fired burner spewed flickering
fingers of flame that accented the shadows cast by the overhead bulbs.
Rev. Jerry ascended three steps, trying to decide whether to leave us
alone.
Teri gesticulated
with her right hand, "Get on with it, Stoneham. I'll supervise. Lifting
heavy objects is one of those few things men are good for."
The basement
was dank, but it was passably warm, and I began sweating inside the quilted
jacket as I moved 4x4 supports and planking whose wood grain was indeed
imbedded with coal dust. My hands were immediately dirty, and I cursed
my failure to buy a pair of work gloves. By the time I had moved the heavy
framework that remained of the coal bin and chute, only a few boxes separated
us from the vault doors.
The first wooden
box was full of damaged hymnals and a few copies of "The Book of
Common Prayer" absent their jackets. I looked at the flyleaves and
they were all, as expected, imprinted with dates prior to 1910. Soon,
only one large and dirty cardboard carton was keeping us from opening
the doors. I wrestled the heavy box to one side, and its side seam split
in a puff of dust, causing the contents to cascade onto the concrete floor.
When I looked up, I noticed that Rev. Jerry was no longer in the basement
with us.
Teri was at
my side, smiling, as we picked up strewn stacks of newspapers and stacks
of Canadian Churchman and The Anglican.
"Teri,
this is no time to read newspapers. We've got work to do."
"Shutup,
Stoneham." She was looking at one paper, then another while I was
moving the quantities of these old publications out of our path.
"Frank,
take a look at this." Her use of my first name stopped me cold. She
repeated herself and shoved the newspaper at me. It was the Toronto Globe
and Mail, slightly yellowed, but very well preserved. "Look at it!"
She was more forceful the third time.
Suddenly I got
it. The war news was not from WWI or even WWII. The article below the
fold on page one was about United States involvement in Viet Nam, the
country name divided into two words. The newspaper was dated October 17,
1964. How could this box have been jammed against these doors since the
time of Rev. Gresham? A shared glance between us confirmed the realization.
I picked up an issue of the Canadian Churchman that carried a 1962 date.
The hinged metal
bar across the old doors was three inches wide and a quarter inch thick.
It was held in place by an old padlock whose key slot was in the face
of the lock. I fully expected it to be rusted shut, but with a little
tweaking, the key turned and the lock snapped open. The heavy hinged bar
swung back with a hollow clang. In lieu of door knobs, the doors had no
latches, only thick metal handles such as those some people installed
on cellar trap doors. The doors were old and rough, splintered in places,
and I noticed in passing several imperfections that were similar to small
diameter drill holes that had pushed crudely outward from the inside.
Teri was still
looking at the newspapers when I pulled on the door handles and felt the
sudden twinge across my trapezius muscle as the doors resisted. My curiosity
was a pleasant nudge, and I did not know what kind of deep closet I would
find behind the heavy partition. When the doors yielded to my third yank,
all that changed.
The heavy doors
lurched open, and a haze of dust clouded the basement air. I was looking
into a blackness whose icy chill was almost material. I had expected a
recess in the wall, but we were presented with a deep room that was not
illuminated from the basement.
I turned the
flashlight to the walls inside, and they reflected remarkable craftsmanship
of fitted stones remaining firm even though the mortar had crumbled and
dropped to the dirt floor in many places. The extent of the enclosure
went beyond the initial stab of our flashlights, but the width of the
vault was approximately 12 feet, with an arched ceiling groined at the
apex a little higher than 7 feet above the hardpan floor.
While I had
lost my orientation in our walk through the church and down the stairs,
it appeared that the vault was an unpopulated catacomb extending in a
southwesterly direction under the graveyard. In a harsh northern land,
it was not easy to dig in the frozen ground through the winter, and bodies
had to be stored until the spring thaw. In the days before embalming was
common and affordable, storage was even more critical.
Teri and I stepped
tentatively into the opening and were assailed by a nascent sour odor
seeping into our clothes. My nostrils wrinkled, and my eyes burned as
readily as if I were standing in the center of mid-day pollution at Sunset
and Vine in Hollywood, California. Teri coughed involuntarily and muttered
several one-syllable words.
The area near
the doors was clean, and the floor solid and hard, dark with residual
moisture and small crevices were spongy with a sickly moss. A few chunks
of mortar and several random pieces of dark metal were scattered on the
smooth surface. I felt a hand squeezing my arm through the coat. My bare
hands were already feeling numb from the frigid air.
We took smaller,
shorter steps into the blackness while part of me marveled at how absolute
darkness could be. The dim light of the basement receded as we trod carefully
one foot at a time into this unexpected marvel of pioneer Cobston architecture.
Our flashlights examined the walls, and the ceiling. We discovered no
artifacts or suggestions of the macabre purpose for building this vault
that most certainly ran beneath the burying ground.
My eyes and
throat burned with an icy fire. The vault, which I thought should have
ended in the 50 or 60 feet we had walked, seemed to make an abrupt turn
to the left.
Teri gasped.
The corridor became a chamber in the blackness, and I estimated that room
to be approximately 21 feet wide, and 11 feet deep. The ceiling was structurally
amazing, comprised of granite slabs held up by ingenious keystones that
would probably withstand an earthquake.
"Oh, Jesus
Christ!" Teri jumped and almost pulled my right arm from its socket.
Her flashlight wavered, and the beam from mine joined hers. The air was
hazy with some kind of particles that had to be causing the burning sensation,
but there was something piled against the wall at the left of the chamber,
and it had been human.
This was no
corpse wrapped for burial-no leftover from the early days of the church.
My light played on two discolored wingtip shoes whose soles were curling
in the darkness. The shoes had not left the feet that wore them. The remains
of a suit of clothes seemed to have corroded into noxious piles of fiber
under the remnants of a beige all-weather coat that was permeated with
the stains of bodily serums that had soaked through as the corpse had
settled into the ground. I was no expert and could not tell how long this
body had been in the vault. A crumpled fedora with an eaten-through crown
lay beside a collapsing human skull whose teeth had dropped into a tiny
grouping on the nitrous floor. A yellowing femur protruded through the
remains of a pant leg, and my stomach lurched. A white, crystalline crust
was growing on the exposed bone.
Now I recognized
the noxious odor as acidic, and it burned the nostrils the way glacial
acetic acid seared my nose in the photo darkroom. I shook my head slowly
and started to back away, but when I looked at Teri's widened eyes, I
felt we would never be here again, so I forced myself to get closer to
the mound that had once been a human being. Gingerly, I lifted the rotting
hem of the coat.
In the beam
of the flash, a cloud of dusty crystals rose into the freezing air, making
the haze even more dense. Under the coat, the corpse's torso still maintained
its shape from a rib cage that had not yet collapsed. There was more.
Two or three blackened silver coins lay on the crystal-encrusted floor,
and a heavily tarnished flat container was partially exposed by the torso.
"That's
a damn hip flask," Teri whispered.
"And it's
not all." I tried to swallow my revulsion, but my mouth was dry and
filled with a rancid taste. I held my breath and reached into the discolored,
fragmenting coat. My hand went naturally around the grip of a pistol I
knew to be a Browning Hi-power 9mm semi-automatic pistol, its gray finish
sheathed with a thin uniform reddish oxidation. The 14-round magazine
was still seated, and the hammer was rusted in the cocked position.
When I removed
the pistol from the body, I could see that the bones of the arms and hands
had fallen to pieces while in a position as though the person had died
while holding his body to keep warm.
Teri's flashlight
pointed to a corner of the chamber a few feet from what had once been
the human being. The corroding remains of a two-cell flashlight lay smashed
on the floor against the base of the rock wall. "God, what it must
be like-to die in the dark. I know who this is." She was whispering.
I felt the cold,
rusting steel of the pistol. Suddenly I realized that I recognized those
splinter-edged holes in the vault door, the imperfect exit holes of copperclad
bullets that had been fired through those massive locked doors-from the
inside. Now I too knew who this poor wretch had been, and I was suddenly
seized with an uncharacteristic panic. "The door. He was shut up
in here by accident or
"
Teri stopped
me before I started a dash for the entrance, her hand like a clamp on
my arm. She put down the flashlight and fished something out of her pocket.
It was the padlock from the vault door. I stood, panting, but flooded
with relief. She managed a smile.
My imagination
was constructing the last hours of private enquiry agent John Delaney's
fretful life, entombed in, as Poe had described, "the intense and
raylessness of the Night that endureth for evermore." Helpless and
drunk, he had been sentenced to death, not by a court, but by the click
of a padlock and rustling black vestments. His cries for help would have
been heard only by the tenants of the graves above him.
I pushed the
Browning into my coat pocket, though I doubted that I would be able to
restore it to its previous function. Our flashbeams lingered on the remains
of John Delaney as we wondered how to report what we had found. Then I
traversed the back wall of the chamber and over to the murky darkness
on the right.
Here the chamber
was unfinished or had suffered some natural catastrophe, for piles of
rocks littered the darkness, revealing a gaping maw. Could Delaney have
been trying to dig his way out? A thick brownish tongue of mud had lapped
into the chamber and solidified, whitish with the rime of acid crystals.
My irritated eyes were running with tears and my throat burned as I pointed
my flashlight into the opening-into a black hole that had to lead in the
direction of that shunned area of the graveyard where my father had found
something frightening beyond what he had known in the trenches of the
first world war.
The mud was
dry, clumping in places. Here in this blackness, the flashlight was little
comfort as I saw the fragments of human remains poking through the miniature
glacier of soil. The isolation of the vault, the horror of John Delaney,
and the poisonous air of that frigid enclosure pushed me beyond revulsion.
But here is
where Teri and I no longer agree as to what we experienced. In comparing
notes, we both saw bone fragments, and a partial mummified cadaver embedded
in the mud, and we both saw the residue of the hundreds of gallons of
caustic solution that had, for some reason, saturated the earth, causing
a river of mud so long ago. We agree that we had reached the limit of
breathing those fumes and feeling the dust crystals flicking pinpoint
burns on our face and hands. We did suddenly bolt from that chamber, and
up the black corridor to the dim yellow opening that looked so distant.
I know, too, that we were both wide-eyed and panting as we pushed those
heavy doors closed over the vault opening, sealing it with a booming thud.
The metal bar was replaced and the lock snapped shut. The timbers and
boxes were replaced as they were found. All those things are part of our
common memory.
We never returned
to St. Mark's, even to attend church. Teri did not write the story about
finding Delaney's body or about the renegade Rev. Peeler who had locked
the detective into the vault. My father's edict from an uncertain past
stared down from the newspaper office wall about "All that Should
be made known." Teri, of course, knew more about what I really wanted
than I did, and that turned out to be one of the best things that ever
happened to me; yet, we have never agreed as to what we last saw in that
chamber beneath Cobston. But, perhaps we react differently when presented
with the inexplicable. Teri says that she saw nothing but relics of life,
for natural law can never be abrogated.
I, however,
will be forever convinced that there are shells of the dead, the evil
residue of consciousness that can be contacted by seance, and which can
seep into the unwary bodies of the living who have been weakened by drugs
or dementia. Perhaps at certain times, and in certain places, even greater
horrors are possible.
For that day
in the subterranean vault, when our flashlight beams probed the breached
chamber wall, I could see a further blackness beyond where the cascade
of congealed mud had emerged onto the vault floor.
Despite the
stinging in my eyes and wherever my skin was exposed, I felt compelled
to investigate and so I got down to my knees and crawled into the opening,
my nose beginning to drain from the onslaught of the foetid air. From
behind, the beam from Teri's flashlight sent my shadow scrabbling to the
hidden corners of the natural cave.
There indeed
were scattered remains of what had been human beings, some bones almost
whole, others reduced to crumbled fragments from the combination of the
noxious chemicals and the natural assaults of the decades.
I crawled perhaps
five feet into the maw of the congealed mud spill feeling the softness
of the pile sink slightly as my weight bore down upon it. I tried not
to think of what was hidden beneath its surface. The soil gave under my
weight, and I fell on my side, inadvertently hitting the "off"
switch on the flashlight. It was then that I was suddenly aware of a foulness,
the emanation of frightening, living evil.
I flicked the
light switch and swung the beam to my right as I scrambled back up on
my knees. The mummified torso was close to the dirt bank, and I felt a
lightning bolt of fright course through my entire frame. It was the suddenness
of this ghastly appearance that unnerved me. This rotted relic was but
inches from my face in the mottled play of light and shadow from the two
flashbeams, and I tumbled, flailing down the dirt floe with a rattle in
my throat. I tumbled onto the vault floor and jumped to my feet. That
was when Teri and I almost ran through the silent vault back to the world.
For that brief
instant, in the acid-encrusted pile of dirt and human detritus, I had
looked into the empty face of the dead whose desiccated ligaments and
muscles had somehow remained as a mockery of human form. In that dark,
freezing moment, I felt a waft of rotting air and that rotted skull with
its patches of hair, that torso of exposed ribs, slowly, deliberately
moved, and the still-appended jaw seemed to lean toward my face, slowly
opening and closing as if to bite at me with its crumbling teeth-a thing
not truly alive since 1919.
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